I recently participated in the Walk to End Alzhiemer's here in my community. It was a very powerful and empowering experience. It was humbling as well. At one point we all held up our spinning flowers and an army of yellow(caregivers), orange (advocates), blue (folks with Alzhiemer's) and purple( folks bereaved by Alzhiemer's) pinwheels filled the field. We deposited our flowers into the hands of volunteers as we took off to march and when we returned we walked through a human made constantly moving "Memory Garden" of pinwheel flowers. Awesome.
When the walk was over most people retrieved their flowers, myself among them. I was going to give it to mom, but as we now know, she didn't come home the next day as planned. I put the flower in the ground by the patio. Now as I sit, slowly regaining my strength from the flu, I watch that dynamic symbol of care giving. Sometimes it spins furiously. Sometimes it is still. Sometimes it suddenly changes direction. When it spins really fast it looks like it is standing still.
That is as much as I can do , right now. Observe, respond to the wind as it blows, and try not to get too dizzy. Rest when I can. Like the pinwheel, I am not now, nor ever was, in charge.
Amen, Amen and Amen
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